What is love? Baby, don't hurt me...

I sit here, and just think... What is it all about? Is it all about the Big Bang theory, matter and forces? Or is it about the feelings, fleeting moments and inexplicable decisions that affect us all. Most would say it's both, I think. But how can these two contrasting ideas compliment each other and culminate in what we call 'Life, the Universe and everything'? 

All emotions are about chemicals. It's a proven fact that we are affected by our hormones and messages from our brains through our nervous systems...yet nobody can explain Love. It's a mystery! The most profound thinkers can spend hours wondering about what the point is! Surely, if we were a more primitive species, we would have the feelings of lust for another for reproduction, not for spending time together. And yet, we are such social creatures and love completely baffles the best of us!

Poets and Novelists portray their views on the subject, and many others, in so many different, often biased manners. It still remains an unanswered question to us all and yet it is something that everyone wants...whether they know it or not, it's a necessity.

Creationism. Where does that come from? I am Catholic, and I do believe that everything was triggered by God, but the Big Bang DID happen. It's the only thing that scientists believe truly possible at the moment and it is entirely plausible. However, there must have been something that started it all off and physicists have yet to solve that question and so I believe that the only plausible idea is that something supernatural started it. I'm not going to force my ideals down anyone's throat, so don't criticise my faith, I won't disrespect anyone like that and I expect the same. 

So, life, what is it really all about? I don't know! And I'm pretty sure you don't either. All we can do is go for it. Live life how we want(without hurting others in the process) and make the most of the good times we have in this planet, who knows what happens next!!!

Just some profound thinking for you there ;) 

Random Rambles and High school idiocy

Whilst being utterly bored out of my brains, I found my 'Random Rambles' from high school and I've just spent the last ten minutes or so cringing at their content and awful 'txt' language...I'll copy a few bits on here to show just how much of an idiot I used to sound like!

Random Ramble #1
tess smells of doggy doo which means dog poop as she is obsessed with the word poo recently
may i help you rachel???
yes i do but it appears that you have a calculator you retard
this is a random ramble tune in again soon to see another one please
OR I WILL KILL YOU =D see you again soon
x

#3
Welcome to my third random ramble this is also the 1st time i have been in i.t for science this year WOOP
But then again i hate science :P
Amyy is reading a random thing on the wall that doesnt make any sense and has LOADS of spelling mistakes in it
RACHII&&KATHH&&CHARLOTTE R EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEV V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V I I I I I I I I I I I I I IIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
Amyy likes bootsfrom soldiers with detachable legs and sed 'yes i do' HA!!! PROOF!!! HA!!!
I had gwen stefani in my head yesterday
now i have a mixture of songs on my jukebox in my mind haha amy made that up :P
i nearly fell over my own foot on the way out of form
i freak amy out and i sed i nu wr she livs and she sed shes gonna move now hehe i'm insane
amyy says:::: bex is a modern, freaky austin powers. I am a jellyfish= woooop
pmsl :P hehe
mwahahahahaha i vant ur blood
donty ask silly q's amyy my bestest band is MCRRRRRRR
AMY SMELLS coz she sed mcr don't rock
well done amy now wer both jinxed
#6
Welcome again my friends to random ramble number 5
this is the 1st time i have been on the pootas 4 geog this year :O
France - He, Biloute! Monte L'Son! Hein!, Ch'Ti DJ - i need 2 listen to that
it has a kool name
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i cant find the top 10 in japan :@
bye x

Some of #8
Here is my 8th random ramble WOOP
2 more and i reach the big '10th ramble' mark:P
haha hannah was chasin rhys b4 4 sweeties:P
but he put a bench infront of her and she screamed:P haha AT A BENCH
awwww we're in values and we're reaserchin a murder of a little boy by lil' boys :(
tis sad:(



There's a whole load more, some with stuff I can't put publicly. But yeah, if you think I use bad language sometimes, just feast your eyes on those gems. It's safe to say that I'm a wee bit more mature now!

I've nearly got my portfolio sorted for Cardiff MET :D Got 4 offers and an interview which is prettyyyyy good! Means I've got plenty of choice as long as I get decent grades. Nerding it out in English should help boost my grade.
I've still got 45 minutes free alone and I'm getting very bored so I'm going to end this here to avoid any repeats of my nonsensical 'Rambles'.

Blogging again, I am afraid

Shall I blog?! Yes, I shall!

Yet again, everything seems a little bit surreal! The lack of connection I seem to have with a few people is quite unnerving yet refreshing. No news on the fall-out situation, but that isn't a shocker! No news on the dating front and no news recently on unis....except I GOT AN OFFER FROM YORK ST JOHN, AMGGGGG!!
Brilliant news tbh!!
Lalalalalalallalla....right...that is NOT a good sign. It means that my 'Random ramble' writing style (hectic and nonsensical) is back.
Can't wait to go to London! I am going to 221B Baker Street and the Sherlock Holmes museum. It's a mere half-hour tube journey from the Globe, where we shall be spending a bit of our time (and I shall spend most of my money of Shakespeare memorabilia).
My new obsession with Mr Holmes had begun. Tbh, I am more attracted to Cumberbatch's Sherlock, than Downey Jnr's, simply on an intellectual and pure awesomeness level. BC is a lot more of a sociopath and more nasty, but that just makes him more attractive! RDJ is still a fabulous human being and THE coolest man ON THE PLANET, bar none, except maybe Depp (<3); but he is more adorable and brilliant in every way...
AVON isn't going as badly as I first thought, thanks to two large-ish orders from Mother and a friend's sister.
I will start my creative blogs when February comes around, as I will be examless and concertless then. I shall also call in on FB at that time, me thinks.
This is turning into a slightly more censored, normal version of my diary, speaking of which, I haven't put a new entry in that for a while...
I actually quite enjoy doing English homework which can only be a good sign and shows that I have made the right decision in pursuing it to Degree level!
I need to read one book properly at a time, I seem to be reading about five at once...its my multitasking ya see ;) such a good woman...PAH.

Time for another blog, I think!

I've got a conditional offer from De Montfort University and an interview for Cardiff MET (UWIC) University! Both to study English and Creative Writing. I'm currently working on a piece for my portfolio for my interview. I've already written a couple of poems and plan to take them to some competitions.

I find myself in a strange sort of purgatory at the moment. I'm happy single and with the friends and family that I have, but I feel, I don't know, a bit odd. I don't 'fancy' anyone at the moment, which is probably part of the reason. I've also not spoken to my best friend in over a week, again, a rarity. I have exams coming up which I am nervous for because the subjects in which they are, are very challenging and I have yet to do well in them.
I can't wait to get to University this September: freedom, a new start and lots of fun, especially because I'll be studying the subject/s that I have a passion for and are almost impossible to get bored of.
Don't get me wrong, Physics is very interesting and I've always had a love of drama, but to just do English will be a bit of a break really. Physics and Maths are interesting and understanding parts of them can make you feel like a reincarnation of Einstein, but they present a massive challenge for anyone with a normal mental capacity.

Emotionally, I don't know where I'm at. As I explained in my last blog, I recently fell out with one of my friends, who has fallen out with a few more since in fact. I'm slightly bothered about how it ended, but I feel a sense of freedom from her now. She claims all the attention available when you're in her company and it can seem quite restricting to a certain extent.

Blog tiiiiime

Well, considering I haven't used this much, I thought I should maybe get some more posting going on!
Yesterday I had an argument with one of my longest term friends. Funny thing is, she hasen't been much of a friend until the last few months, and even then, she has always come first.
Maturity is something that we all gain as we age, well at least most of us do. I recognise signs of this in myself for example. Yet she seems to show the hints and slip back straight away.
She has a very distorted view on the reality of a lot of things. That is because of one of two things: either she is a complete moron, or an evil genius. My guess being the latter, because boyyyy can she bitch!!
I've always been a friend to her, except a fall out we had in year 9, but that's another story for another time! Yet now she reckons i merely criticised her for my own good. I fail to see her logic here, and it is pretty obvious that I have been way too soft.
She treated me like crap since I've been friends with her, granted she has improved, but she still attention seeks like there is no tomorrow. She's said a few times that she is going to delete her Facebook profile and yet she remains on there, constantly posting 'woe is me' posts and getting her fair-weather friends complementing her, to boost her superficial ego. In half an hours time I am de-activating my Facebook profile, to prove to myself that I am stronger than her, and a few others like her. I need to build up what will power I have and progress in life. I am maturing and FB is stopping me reaching my potential. I'll miss it simply because it's like a habit!
I hope the next blog I do will be more positive, but I have three exams this month so I doubt it!